Pedro Pascal’s giving his fans a bit of an inside look into his life. He’s Esquire Magazine’s latest cover and he’s taken his time to talk to them about some burning questions!

He first spoke about being… middle aged. No the fans don’t necessarily like being told Pascal’s middle aged but he seems really chill about it having a youthful air to it.

Pascal: “I had a moment of thinking, You’re in your forties and you don’t own a home? Grow up. But I’m relinquishing expectations around what it is to be middle-aged and what it means to be fully grown up. Why am I trying to force a square shape into a triangle? I just don’t want to make any decisions.”

He also spoke about his mother Veronica Pascal who unfortunately passed away when Pedro was just 24, he spoke about how he turns to her in time of need, “I had sort of the realization that it would be nice to talk to her more…I love you. I miss you. Thank you. I’m scared. I would love it if you would help me believe in myself, because I know you do.” He said this in response to having been asked about taking on challenges in his career.

He was also asked some daunting questions like if he ever thought he wouldn’t make it as an actor, turns out he did have some kind of deadline for it stating: “I died so many deaths. My vision of it was that if I didn’t have some major exposure by the time I was twenty-nine years old, it was over, so I was constantly readjusting what it meant to commit my life to this profession, and giving up the idea of it looking like I thought it would when I was a kid. There were so many good reasons to let that delusion go.” But luckily he kept his dream alive and kept pushing through as an actor and everyone can agree that all his hard work has paid off given how he’s currently the most popular actor across the internet, where he’s being offered some of the biggest roles in Hollywood.

And finally he was asked what’s next he gave a very honest answer that’s left everyone as curious as he is, “What’s next? I have no idea. I just hope that I have the maturity to not chase something that would mean more from the outside.”